Lessons From My Wilderness

The last six months of my life have been a “wilderness” of sorts. God is stretching me and calling me to trust Him in ways I have never had to before.

I have gone from a wonderful ministry to no formal ministry at all; I have left financial and material security to being unemployed; I went from a 3600 square foot home to an 800 square foot cottage; and I have had my personal identity challenged to the core. During this sixth month period, I have worked hard pouring my heart into a book for pastors that as of this writing does not have a publisher.

Walking by faith is much easier to preach than actually live out!

Despite the many challenges, however, the Lord is teaching me some important truths that I hope will encourage and challenge you to go deeper in the Lord. Here are some of these truths:

1. Sometimes obedience is not easy, and ease of circumstances should not be what we look to in determining God's will. In 2 Cor. 11 Paul was in the center of God's will and yet he experienced hunger, thirst, persecution, danger, and many unpleasant circumstances.

2. God at times will test us: our motives, our loyalty, our love, our obedience, our purity, our faith, our steadfastness... My eyes have been opened to the many verses where God says He will test us. Here are a few interesting verses on testing:

“The LORD your God is testing you to find out whether you love him with all your heart and with all your soul. It is the LORD your God you must follow, and Him you must revere. Keep His commands and obey him; serve Him and hold fast to Him.” Dt. 13:3-4

“Because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” James 1:3-4

“Those on the rock are the ones who receive the word with joy when they hear it, but they have no root. They believe for a while, but in the time of testing they fall away.” Luke 8:13

“We are not trying to please men but God, who tests our hearts.” 1 Thess 2:4-5

“Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.” James 1:12

In a future blog I hope to write more about the specific tests the Lord takes some of his servants through. For example, King David failed the test of purity, while Joseph passed this test. The results in each of their lives were dramatically different.

3. When the Lord puts us through a season of testing, it is usually for the purpose of purifying us for greater usefulness. Often during a test, we see impurity in our life. When this occurs, we need to honestly face our sin, confess it to God, repent of it in the power of the Spirit, and ask God to supernaturally change us. If we do not pass the test, God will often make us retake the test. If we do pass the test, we will be “an instrument for noble purposes, made holy, useful to the Master and prepared to do any good work” (2 Tim. 2:21).

4. After enduring a season of testing, we are better prepared to help others who are going through tough times. With all that is happening in our country right now, God wants to raise up a remnant of tried and proven saints who can come to the aid of those who are hurting and in need of support (see 2 Cor. 1:3-8). Perhaps this is why so many Christians are being put through the fire right now.

5. When we are struggling and wrestling with the Lord, we need a "cord of 3 strands that cannot be easily broken.” This cord of three strands is: The Word of God for truth, Godly friends for support, and anointed books for inspiration. Be sure you have all 3 in your life: the Word, at least one good friend, and access to good books from those who have suffered and passed the tests (Bob Sorge for example).

6. God is faithful and promises to provide for us if we hold fast to Him. Unemployment is very hard on anyone, especially a man with a family. And yet, God promises over and over to be our Provider:

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?” (Mt. 6:25-27).

“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well” (Mt. 6:33).

“I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread” (Ps. 37:25).

7. When we are going through trials and testing, our attitude is very important. Chuck Swindoll hits the nail on the head when he says,

“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.

Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home.

The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude... I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it.

And so it is with you... we are in charge of our attitudes.”

8. God alone is enough. I believe the deepest point a person can get to in their journey with God is when Jesus and Jesus alone is their true source, their deepest need-meeter, and their life (not just their way and their truth).

“Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever” (Ps. 73:25-26).

“When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory” (Col. 3:4).

My prayer is that some of these lessons from my “wilderness” might help you when you go through your own wilderness. Be assured that God does not waste sorrow. Every rainy day is to produce a grassy yard; every fire is to bring forth new vegetation; and every storm is to tear down what is unnecessary.